THE PLAN: 30 days and counting

I, Molly Nelson, Coffee Addict have started to wean myself off my comfort drug of choice. I clearly remember back in 2004 crippling myself down to a half cup a day and full on passing out at work. Stars were out even with my eyelids shut and I found myself in moments of hyperventilation turned hot flash. What have I done! Doing?! This feeling I have is not just the gnawing of the stomach from withdrawal - anxiety and perfectionism are kicking in!

I suppose I cling to order to avoid my own reactions in the midst of ciaos. A simple plan sets my mind at ease. Perhaps this is why we desire to have purpose so much. It is not so much the end goal but the need to something to cling to: security, assurance, a confidence that all will be alright. Unfortunately order and planning is never enough with life so volatile. I look at me now and say, why worry? Sure I could fail, I am taking on risk. I don’t know how my body will react nor if I will be able to control myself. It is the hope, the goal that keeps me going. This is faith.

My little plan for this big fast:

· PREPARATION (June 1-9): Formulate a plan, research health benefits, research personal and family heath ailments, discover recipes, practice recipes, shop for food and supplies, wean off coffee, mentally prepare to be deprived

· THE DIVE (June 10-12): Begin fast, overcome initial hunger pain and weakness

· INNER CONFRONTATION (June 13-19): The week of the SEVEN event at Solid Rock fellowship; take personal field trip to where I was baptized 14 years ago

· (June 20-30) Don’t have a clue…survive?

“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me, and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you, and you will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29: 11-13